While I may be a writer and have a way with words, that all goes out the window when it comes to being sentimental. As I mentioned earlier, I’m crap with descriptive words, so as I’m trying to find ways to write out my sentimentality I come to a blank. I really do. Or I think, “Oh, it’ll be crap.”
Then again, I feel almost all of my writing is absolute crap. But I digress.
I was supposed to have gone to bed hours ago, but I still have a video to attend to before I go. In just a matter of hours I will be on a plane to first Frankfurt and then Rome; no, I will not eat anything in Germany, I’ve already been made to promise. In less than a week now I will be on an airplane to take me back to New Jersey. I’m not sure just how I feel about that yet – bittersweet is a word that a lot of people around here have thrown around, and it’s very fitting: I want to go home to see my family and friends, to have the food I’ve missed these past five months, yet that means I have to leave this place I’ve come to call home.
Earlier tonight I walked around to film one last bit for my video and while thinking of regrets that I didn’t go to places within my very own neighborhood I got a little somber. And even now as I write this I’m getting misty. But also at that moment, as I pulled myself together for yet another take I thought, “I can’t focus on what I didn’t get to do. I have to remember what I’ve done.” My dad said it damn well early in the day via Skype: “You’ve had a once-in-a-lifetime experience.”
And I certainly have.
I still have one more week of my journey to complete, a trip to Italy to, among many other things, meet my family. And I’m certainly not done with this blog yet; I haven’t forgotten about spring break or the many adventures I’ve had this past month, which I do want to get to (without any reference to going or being home). In fact, my final day in Europe will consist of almost nothing except airplanes and airports, and I have a good chunk of time to spend at Heathrow before my flight back to New Jersey in which I’ll probably blog again.
But until then, I need to edit my video. And I’m going to have the time of my life in Italy.
So long and thanks for all the fish, London. You were fantastic, but I’ll come back one day.